i spend more of my time travelling on planes than i do with both feet planted firmly on the ground. i carry out my days with some mental countdown up until the next time i am back at an airport and, inevitably, back up in the sky again. i always come out of it restless and irritable, because i am an impatient person and five hours, twelve hours, twenty plus hours are too long for me to sit still with only the occasional refuge of a bathroom break or a layover giving me the chance to move around. and even with the latter i just wind up at another airport to get onto another plane and repeat all the processes over again.
i left adelaide on the morning of the 25th, and am now in las vegas on the afternoon of the 25th, even though i flew for roughly a full day. i have taken almost identical plane trips from home to the states, but i never cease to be mindfucked by the timewarp that you travel through when you fly all the way across the world. i feel like it should be early morning right now, but i haven't slept yet and i've been drinking coffee and this x-brand generic mountain dew i found in a store, which tastes like it has about ten more cups of sugar than regular dew and has been making me fucking nauseous. twenty three hours in flight with no sleep and i am ready to find an excuse to kick people's asses. my sister kheri isn't in any better shape, but she's more hungover than anything and probably hates me right now for the drinks i continuously ordered for her over the course of the flight. i hope she got her fill, because now that we are in america, neither of us are old enough to buy liquor. but there's a fifty-fifty chance we'll still somehow be drunk by the end of the evening.
i neglected my blogspot since i created it almost two months ago, which is weird because as a rule i am good at keeping things updated. i will probably be in here more to chronicle my journeys around america, since i didn't do that when i was here with soundwave. i kind of feel on my own right now, it's just me and kheri and she will be returning home in a week or so. this is my first real time in the states without the band or a friend to keep me in line. i don't even have hot rod. i feel like, even though i have been doing the band thing for god knows how long, this is the first time i've ever really been away from home. soundwave is my home, i've always felt comfortable no matter where i was as long as i was with alfie and cody. now i am seeing places by myself. i'm not so sure how i feel about that yet. i will keep you updated.
the ARIAs feel so long ago already. i still can't wrap my mind around the fact that we won three of them, including the biggest one of the night-- how fucking crazy is that? i had even been up for two under stopslowgo, i didn't win but even just being nominated is such a huge deal. i don't think i ever really thanked anyone properly for that. i probably seem like a huge inconsiderate asshole... because i am sometimes. but i really do love our fans and the people who helped make that possible.
onto another topic before i begin singing wind beneath my wings-- my little sister is eighteen today. that's so crazy to me. since i was a kid she was always the younger one who i got to taunt because i was able to do stuff before she could. i could tell her off like "you can't do this, kheri, you're too young". but she is an adult now. i can't wrap my mind around the fact that she is all grown up. maybe if we ever do end up in america, i will have my cockiness back for awhile longer once i am twenty-one and she won't be able to drink. i could rub that into her face for a year or so. but eighteen is such a big birthday and i think i have successfully spoiled her rotten. hangover aside, she seems happy. we haven't been together much since she moved to melbourne to do her actress thing, and this week together is important for us both.
my first show is soon. i feel like i have a thousand butterflies in my stomach right now. but i think i'm going to do okay. and even if i suck, i always have that uncanny ability to salvage a situation even when i do something totally idiotic. let us hope my luck holds through this time.
i miss everyone at home so much. i'll see you all soon. i've left my heart there but it is being safely guarded.
i will be posting more. maybe give some clues about shit i will be doing with stopslowgo in the future. maybe the clues will make sense, maybe they won't. but they might. twenty-four days ago marks the date my life finally started making sense. only the person who has been keeping count will understand that.
until next time,
julefrog
i think i'm bono now.
